thanks lola i am hiding and avoiding the fact but am ok . i am going soon to get my hair done. i'm kind of worried about what T thinks of me and at the same time kind of confused about what my expectations of her are .i want to ask her what her expectations of me are but not sure i will and also not sure she will answer either. i don't know if she can answer it right .i think she knows that and may not try. i don't know but i am going to try.