It's been 8 years since I last cut myself. Today it is all I can think about. I know it's not healthy and it solves nothing, but I still feel the urges. Maybe it is just self loathing and I want to hurt myself because I hate me. I don't feel like dealing with anything. I just wanted to explode and have my life in shambles. No one expecting anything from me, No one caring. I don't feel as if I can cope with things. I told my wife I was really depressed and she said nothing about it. I guess she already knows I am, I just wanted some comfort from her.