Thanks everyone.

Unfortunately, I always feel this way, even when manic. Even when I'm feeling like a super genius I still also feel like a complete loser. It's very strange....

I wish all of you lived closer so I could have a big group of friends nearby. Even the friends I have close by I do not trust them very much.

I have been told all these things my whole life. Just when I think I am getting away from them, I can't get away from them. They follow me around everywhere.

I watched that movie Bully, which is a documentary on bullying. And, it's like watching my life. I do believe everyone should watch it. It was hard to watch because it was kind of PTSD for me, but I watched it anyway, to say "This is what happened to me! And it doesn't go away just because I grew up!"

It's just like bipolar. No one understands what bullying really does to you.