I had a particularly bad reaction to Zoloft. Once that got straightened out and a little time passed, I tried another med and did not have a bad reaction.

Everyone varies in their responses and all the meds are different, so giving things a try until you find the right meds for you is very very worth it.

Maybe remind yourself that you are worth this effort, that if one thing doesn't work you can try another just fine. Maybe you can work up some positive statements you can tell yourself to help feel calmer about this process. Those strategies work well for me.