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Old Feb 20, 2013, 04:02 PM
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DID I HEAR YOU RIGHT??? You wanted to go to a support group for PTSD and they nixed the idea saying you shouldn't nurture it? Obviously any support group they know of is just a bunch of whiners and not real therapy... I'm not a group person, and plus my injury issues aren't common themes for PTSD groups (so many are child abuse, or military combat) so a group wouldn't do me good but worse.

However, if you are in a similar group and the T does real group therapy, then maybe being triggered by another's story, and having the T work through it with the group as a whole (for I doubt you would be the only one triggered) that is hardly nurturing it.

Unless you've already had the discussion, I would ask exactly what their definition of nurture is, and what their fears are of you attending group.

It could very well be for your own good, as a T who does group might use a different method that your own T and confusion etc (or over work) could occur. But I'd still want to know exactly what they think. lol

I had taken a very, very long time (thank GOD for no limit insurance covered session) just for ME to be sure that the guy I was seeing who was an "expert" in pain and stress management. . . to be sure he really did (does) "get it". And yes, he does and once that was worked through, then I didn't have to continually feel like he really didn't understand all I go through etc. with the ptsd.
She wasn't saying I shouldn't find a group for it...I guess just trying to more or less say I shouldn't you know be totally consumed by it. But the issue I have that even she can't seem to get is I am not looking to delve into it to be consumed I just want to learn more about it, find people who can relate and understand some of it so I don't have to feel so alone with it all the time. I mean I don't have anyone in my family to really talk to about it...so the problem is I litterally don't get time to deal with it. Even in therapy its always all about moving forward...the depression, anxiety when I need to resolve the past and whats happened to me before I can do that....and even then not so sure how far forward I could move. I mean I guess I am not as focused on recovering or the future in fact the future scares me because i am pretty sure its not much to look forward to...but more coming to terms with what is and dealing with that.

All I do in my therapy is talk to the therapist, sometimes its a little bit useful...but then I still feel like even she doesn't get it and she seems to expect too much sometimes. LIke not so sure she really understand that it is vitally important I watch my stress level and take steps to reduce the stress in order to prevent my freak outs. Like I started explaning it yet again thinking she was finally getting it I said when the anxiety gets too bad I can't do much of anything which is true because kinda hard when your limbs wont do what you want them to and your hands are all unsteady of if you just flat out freeze up. BUt she then she said something like 'well you have to function even with the anxiety.' or something when she does not get if I do that I get overwhelmed and flip the f*** out. So I pretty much told her that and that I didn't want to go back to the psych ward over trying to follow her advice and just function through it. I told her how much I've been pushing myself with my 'im ok' front around my family and she told me how I should push myself further to do more things when the point was I am already pushing myself past my limits and somethings gotta give if I don't stop but now I feel even more obligated to push myself even further.

Maybe I need to right down how some of what she says makes me feel and how i react and bring them up next session otherwise I am not sure i should keep going to her...I mean she seems to be trying to help but some of her attempts just seem to make it worse.