I am totally torn about seeing a student clinician at this point. When I first started therapy, anything was helpful, and the students were welcome (though I wasted a whole year with one, only to decide after the year was up that it was a waste). I really want to give him the chance, as I would want that myself as a student, but I feel like I need something more right now. Another problem however, I do not have the money or resources to pay for an experienced clinician... I feel trapped, and forced into being his learning tool. While he is a great guy, I do not trust him yet, and I don't see that trust blossoming any time soon. I want to tell him all this, but I also don't want to hurt his feelings or ruin the only thing I have to work with. He doesn't know how to approach the self injury or the dissociation or the abuse... or maybe he is letting me be the one to go there... I don't know. I just know that a lot of this stuff is very salient in my life.head right now and I need to work on it. But I feel like I am all too effective at glossing over these things with him. I was able to tell him that I have trust issues with men, so maybe that is why he is not pushing the topic? I respect and value that he is respecting my hesitation, but at the same time, I need someone to push me on those things. They are very present and very in-my-face a lot of the time... I don't know how to tell him to push that stuff without pushing on the sensitive piece of the abuse and self-injury...