Quite recently I have started to come to grips with something I have struggled with for as long as I could understand the issue. I've always felt much more comfortable with masculine roles and clothing. I absolutely hate wearing feminine clothes and avoid it. I believe I act and think more like a man than a woman. I have a very hard time seeing myself as a woman. In online games I always feel more comfortable playing as a male and coming across as a guy. I look longingly at the men's clothing section at stores or online shopping. My interests line up more with men's than women's. I think you get the picture without me going on, because I could go on for a while.

As far as sexuality, I still find myself more attracted to men than women, although I feel pretty set on not having a "partner" at all. I think I would feel pretty comfortable for the most part presenting myself as a man, and to an extent, I kinda already have been. I sometimes even feel weird going into the women's bathrooms because of it lol. (I have short hair styled in a way that is more typically masculine, wear more "masculine" clothing...)

I'm still pretty torn though. My whole family is very traditional Christian, and I strongly suspect they would not accept this aspect of me. I'm going to my first T meeting in a couple days who is a Christian counselor. I'm not practising religion right now, although I'm hiding this for the time being. On one hand I really want to bring this issue up, but on the other hand, I'm rather concerned about how most Christians view this subject and not 100% sure if I should bring this up or not.

Anyways, that's my ramble, I really want to talk this out a bit and it seems like PC is the best place to do it right now...!