I just feel like absolute crap. I'm feeling like a lost speck that no one can see. Don't even know what to start with. Even though my relationship was a farce, and I kept going back to someone who doesn't love me, I feel lost without him. I realize this post won't make sense. I use to wait for my husband. Now I'm alone and supposedly better off because I finally woke up and realized I was being used and abused. It sucked being with him but having absolutely no one sucks more!