T, I really want to talk to you sooner than our next appointment. I've got realizations coming out the yingyang right now and they're driving me back up into my head and I don't like being all up in my head anymore. I hear you saying "find your feet" and I'm trying, I'm trying. I feel like somebody just emptied a dumptruck of realizations over my head and I'm drowning in them. What's that you say t? I'm a swimmer, swim to the top of them? Ok I'll try that. OMG I do have an inner t. Zoiks.