I haven't been in the hospital since my month-long February stay... before that I was in at least once a month. I can afford to go in to stabilize, as long as I can make up my classes. If I have to drop out again I'll lose everything I've worked on, I know myself, I'll commit suicide if I lose my classes, I'll be stuck at home, not nearly stable enough to get a job or keep it, and despondent. This is why I'm so cautious to go back in the hospital... I NEED my classes... I've got to keep up the work. And I think I can manage it if it's just one stay... which is more pressure on that stay...
I have so much on my mind...
I have an appointment with my case manager tomorrow... I've got to figure out what to tell her...