I'm new here and hope to find some support. I'm a 50-year-old female, married, and I have a 23-year-old daughter. I have dealt with depression throughout my life and have been on Paxil before, which helped, but it sort of killed everything else, so I do not want to take anything anymore. Both my parents died from cancer and I sort of feel like an orphan anymore. I feel like I am stuck in a hole and I cannot get out. My husband is not supportive so I won't even bother to talk to him. There is no compassion, just blame. Sometimes I sit here and cry quietly because I feel defeated by life itself and I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel. I wanted to talk to a therapist, but of course insurance will not cover it, and money is always a problem, as it is for everybody these days. I always feel like everbody's life is so much better than mine. I'm just really in a sad place right now. Everything is a struggle.

I hope to find some kind words and encouragement.