I do have something simular to antisocial personality disorder but I'm sure that it's not the real thing.. I'll be seeing someone about this very soon. It might be that I do have It and I'm depressed because of it..

I'm going to have to start acting again.. (start at the gym) because people won't leave me alone. I know I have no motivation but it beats having to deal with people talking to me about my problems.. I'll also have to eat well before it becomes noticeable.. It's exhausting and depressing. I hate this.. Suicidal thoughts happen every day but I'm sure I won't do it.. The sevear thoughts just come and go.. Like two weeks ago for example..

I have excellent social skills. I just don't use them (before depression of course I did). Now it's only for manipulation I guess.. I can lie so well as if im telling the truth that I'm sure that I would be able to pass a lie detector test..