By all means go to the hospital. Call 911. What are the classes worth if you're going to die. I've felt so desperate and alone. It's so so so hard to move forward. Think of things one moment at a time, believe me I'm there now. I can't even bathe some days. When you talk to your case worker tell them exactly how you feel. Don't leave out anything. You deserve happiness, your life is so prescious and I don't even know you but I would hate to lose you. If you have the courage to tell cyberspace then you have the courage to go on.