Honey, you are NOT a mistake. Don't EVER think that. And how in the name of God would the world be better off without you? Can you please tell me how? That isn't true at all !!

GOD PUT YOU HERE FOR A REASON -- and sweetie, it's up to you to find what that reason is. It's the same for all of us. For some of us, it takes us many many years to figure out what our reason is. I figured out mine several years ago -- it's to TRY to help people online. I can't do it in "real life" because I'm disabled. I've always wanted to help people, but then I became disabled -- previously I worked in an eye doctors office, so I was instrumental in helping people SEE. That was a GAS. But now I can't work at all. My only option is online. Perhaps YOU can help people online too!!! You just have to decide WHAT you want to do.

You have a secret -- well, you need to talk to a professional about that secret. You need to be in THERAPY. That is the place to discuss that secret. It NEEDS to be talked about!!! You cannot keep that secret inside forever because it's EATING YOU UP. You have GOT to tell someone, and it should be a therapist. Can you get into therapy? You should be in NOW. You need it badly, honey. Even if you have Medicaid, they will pay for therapy.

So my dear friend, get into therapy and you'll be on your way to healing. Right now you're struggling much too much, and you need some help. The help you need is much more than we can give you here. I hope you'll make the call tomorrow and make an appointment!

Take care sweetie and God bless you! Big hugs, Lee