Hi dear Kelly ~ It hasn't been that long since you broke up with "him." You're still reeling from being single all of a sudden. It still feels strange to you since you'd been with him for so long.
It will start feeling more "normal" in a while. Give it a little time, and you'll begin to like being your own person, and not having to answer to anyone. You'll enjoy not having anyone harping at you about money you spend, or what time you got home, or any of the things that we women get crabbed at.
You'll soon have friends to go out with, and have lunch with, etc. So get some new clothes and be ready for your nights out & lunch dates. LOL And don't think about the past. It's over and done with! Thinking about it only drags you down and causes you more depression. Yesterday is gone. There's nothing you can do about it. Let it GO. There's a GOOD reason you're not with him anymore, right? YOU WERE ABUSED! So forget about it. You have a NEW LIFE -- be happy about it.

Tomorrow is a new day, and it's exciting!!

So CELEBRATE! HUGS, Lee