There is a group that deals with grieving at the same clinic where I see my p-doc. I am afraid that if I join..I will just get more depressed. That's what happened after my husband died. I went to Kaiser Hospital for group therapy. I quit as my depression seemed to worsen.

Maybe time is the only answer for me. I am also sad because I was not there to give CPR to him. And I am angry at his girlfriend who is an alcoholic...and very destructive. She sat on the couch drinking as usual..while my brother was dying in bed. She was a trained and state certified nursing asst. The only thing she assisted in was driving my brother to drink even more. His stress level was way up and so was his blood pressure. Hell surely is meant for people like that. She's mean spirited and had the GALL to call here drunk the day my brother died and she called my brother a filthy name. Well yet another Jerry Springer moment, I guess!

Thanks wisewoman for your input.