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Originally Posted by 2_b_free
Kelly -
I have been single and free since the 90's. Getting out of a bad relationship was hard, but now that some much time has passed it is like I never knew him at all. He is a stranger. At first I was depressed, now after all these years I have an active social life, wonderful friends who love me and a place I belong.
Today I am independent, great career, and had the courage to get wls and lose 155 pounds. Looking back to what kind of person I would have been had I stayed, that is a horrid dark thought.
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2Bfree~
Thanks so much! Maybe in time that will be what I feel like, a stranger...not someone that I thought he was. He was becoming more and more someone I thought I knew but didn't because of all his deception. My depression was spiraling out of control and he kept feeding it. Somehow I think he wanted me to feel pain and enjoyed seeing me suffer. Yes, to think where I would be if things hadn't changed, is much worse than dealing with what I'm guessing is fear of the unknown. Abuse was familiar, I know that sounds wrong, I guess I just mean it was too easy to stay with him because I felt (and still do) like I don't deserve to be respected because I've never had any confidence.
I'm glad for you that things worked out.