I feel really down today and useless. Is depression supposed to make you really tired? I stayed up all night and woke up at 2:30 and now I am tired. I had a freak out moment. Freak out moment is the nickname for when I break down and cry uncontrollably. I have no one to talk to. My support system sucks. My friends aren't around when I need them, some of them are going through their own problems i don't want to burden them. I do so much for people and get nothing in return which makes me more depressed. There's this one guy i talk to. I stay up all night with him and keep him company while he drives. I put up with his crappy behavior and the fact he ignores my phone calls. He lied to me about being in a relationship. I know i should stop talking to him. I told myself not to let a person make me feel depressed and I do it anyways

I guess I needed to vent and to know I am not alone. I hate being depressed and feeling this way. I don't like feeling tired. I am hoping i can survive the next few days until my therapy appointment.