((MdngtRain)),

Can you reach your old therapist that you had at home? Do you think this old therapist can have a talk with this new one you are trying to open up with?

Hun, I understand, it is hard to get to that point with a new T so you can open up and trust. Yes, an hour isn't very long to do that either. Is there anyway you can get more than an hour with this new T a few times so you can get more comfortable?

I think the "wanting to disconnect" with this new T is the PTSD, that feeling is common when in a situation you don't "trust" yet. You have to give this some time.
Just because this is a student doesn't mean you might not connect. Is this T you are seeing close to your age? Sometimes that isn't so bad if that happens.

Slow down, ok, it sounds like you are feeding into the fear instead of self soothing and calming yourself and encouraging yourself to get some help.

Maybe what you can do is "write" out your feelings like you have here and bring them to the next session and have this new T read it so you don't have to struggle to say it in front of him.

Writing things out helps to calm and get thoughts in order, which it sounds like you need right now. You have a few things coming together in your post here, all of which are stressful things. You should share this with this new T.

((Hugs))
Open Eyes