Hey couch peeps! Just popping in to say I'm sorry I've been MIA....as usual. Trying to keep my head above water with all the stuff going on with my mom.

Tonight, I got out of the house for a few hours which felt AWESOME. Went to the open night mic at the place where my group is now considered "regulars". I didn't perform, though, because I just haven't been able to focus on comedy....and haven't been in a funny mood.

I am working on some hospital jokes....

I'm also working on one about group T the other day....kinda sad and self-deprecating. One guy member complimented a girl member on her appearance (she's very attractive but doesn't believe it, not to dismiss it at all - She's never been abused, so she's not quite sure where it stems from...anywho)....She got very upset by it.

Another guy member said that he felt very protective of her because he's developed a bond with her. He told the guy who complimented her that he was uncomfortable with his comment - and that he'd feel the same way had it been his wife that he said that to. He wondered why he felt that way and wondered maybe if he said it to someone else, he'd have a different reaction.

Complete silence.

I was the only other female in the room.

Go figure.

I've always felt repulsive...and have never been physically attractive...but wow, that was telling. The only other time complete silence feels that bad is when you're doing stand-up comedy...or being vulnerable in sharing something very personal and painful.....

Now I just need to figure out how to turn that into a joke....