I have this huge problem with clothes and material possessions. I don't know if it's ocd or just obsession or what. Just seeing a loose thread or any type of botch on my clothes makes me want to cry. I hate it. I hate that I have to feel this way. I just strive for perfection that badly, and when I see a microscopic loose seem on a shirt or other article of clothing of mine I just feel like it is tainted, and garbage now, even though the shirt is perfectly fine. This has happened with so many clothes now, it is getting ridiculous. I have multiple pairs of the SAME pair of pants, JUST because I wanted one where the logo on the back was perfectly straight. I now have three ben davis shirts, the same thing, all because there were slight imperfections with each one, like one tiny loose seam. Now I am wearing the new ben davis shirt, and I love it, and want to wear it and be fine with it, but there is one tiny little loose seam on the front pocket. Completely unnoticeable from afar. The shirt is fine other than that, but I just can't stop obsessing over this imperfection. Now wherever I go, I try to observe other clothes on people and in stores just to FIND loose seams on clothes, just so I can feel better about my own situation, and assure myself that it is common. w I can't take it anymore! I am tired of buying the same articles of clothing again and again!! I hate this anxiety! Should I just get another shirt??? What do I do??
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