A little background:

I'm in my early 20s and in my senior year of my undergraduate. I transferred in and "got to the party late". I am told that I am beautiful, intelligent, and talented. I also am very articulate, altruistic, and funny. I figured that it would be really easy for some one like me to make friends, but I was wrong.

I'm an introvert, so I rely heavily on having a handful of close friends. I'm more mature than almost everyone around me. I have a hard time finding common ground with them. I know that this sounds snobby, but I've also come to notice that I am of higher intelligence than most and enjoy talking about higher level things.

Its easy for me to get along with people, but no one seems to like me. I get dismissed all the time. I'm very active in several organizations, but I often get dismissed for my remarks, even though they aren't controversial.

I was talking to a boy but he was going through some stuff and quit talking to me. I'm way more hurt by it than I should be. Several friends, an ex, and my mother have all dismissed me as well when I did nothing wrong. My other even recently tried to kill herself; that's how little she cares about me.

I guess that I don't know what to do because no matter how hard I try, nobody likes me. It gets worse because I don't care to be around most people. Its not that they're bad, I just get burned out easily when talking to most people. I see people making connections with people all the time and it makes me want to cry because I'm trying so hard and I can't do it.

I know that I'm not bad, just unlucky. I know that I can't control other people, but I don't know how to handle feeling like there is a force-field between me and the world. I'm currently trying to just rely on my own company all of the time, but it doesn't seem healthy.

Any thoughts or wisdom would be appreciated.