RJ~
Thanks so much...I am a person who doesn't like to be dishonest so I appreciate that. And I do care. In this lengthy relationship I feel like I lost myself, who I used to be. I have a few "friends" in real life, but I got so wrapped up in my depression that I feel like I can't reconnect, and they live far away. There is one support group in town, tried it but there were only 3 other people and they don't talk. But I may try it again.
I wish I could thank the heavens, but why did I waste so much of my life and have to suffer? I guess I wasnt listening for what I needed to do. I can only change myself not him.