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i don't know how long you have been sober so this may not apply, j. after we've numbed all emotion with alcohol/drugs and then get sober there's an event that occurs- crying sometimes so hard it hurts. i was told to be aware the crying could occur even if there was no reason. so i cried a lot. getting out all the stuffed emotions i'd numbed for so long. i just cried til i was done and resumed what i was doing. then wouldn't you know i'd start crying again.
so if this applies to you don't be worried. it will stop. just give it time.
for me the crying was a cleansing of all my sorrow.
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