I have a lot of strange dreams, but I try not to think about them a lot (as they usually are nightmares). However, there's one that's been bugging me a lot lately that I had about a week ago. Especially the fact that I woke up wanting it to be true. I think about it now and still feel remnants of that, even though I know that's sick. Anyways, here's how it went:

I was in a hospital, in a private ICU-ish room. I couldn't walk around much, because I would get dizzy and fall over. Eventually, I made my way to a "playroom" where there were other children my age and younger. I got the sense that it was a mental hospital, but also a regular one, somehow.

Somehow I ended up outside, having a nurse or some lady high up in the trees with us, stepping around branches and climbing higher and higher. All I wanted to do was fall backwards into the huge pile of leaves that I just *knew* was below us (it was a REALLY big tree). I did end up falling, and that was really scary. I don't remember landing in the leaves, but when I woke up, I just kept turning around and around in the pile of leaves. It was never deep enough, for some reason. I eventually figured out that the leaves wouldn't get scattered (and would then feel deeper) if I just laid there, so I did. I just laid face-first in the leaves before I became unconscious (in the dream).

I woke up in a bit of a daze in the "playroom", where this older-man psychiatrist (?) was handing out these sheets of paper to everyone in the room (all the kids). It was where we had to write the letters of the alphabet out, like "AA, BB, CC, DD, ect..." with a crayon. I felt like it was stupid, but tried a little at first anyways. I ended up just drifting back to my room. (Or ending up there somehow, I'm not sure.)

This is the scariest part for me. I went back to my room and was packing up everything (I think I was being moved to a regular room later) and this man came up behind me and raped me. I don't remember details of it, or what he looked like other than being tall and wiry. (This is one of the reasons why it's so horrendous for me to wake up wanting the dream to be real O.O)

Somehow I ended up back in the playroom. I looked down and I saw my alphabet paper. The doctor had checked only one box at the bottom (like what the alphabet paper shows about us or something). For mine, he had checked "Other" and wrote "Sometimes shows signs of extreme stubbornness." I got mad or something and tried to finish the alphabet paper, but it was really hard because my hands were shaky and didn't want to move. It was lined paper, and I ended up using a bunch of sheets because I wrote "D" at the top line, then the other "D" on the last line of the paper (but in the same spot below the 1st one), and the same on for all of the other letters.

Then I saw my dad and all I could think when he looked at me was the he thought I was faking everything about this. And I started to wonder if I was faking it. I didn't think so, but I couldn't be sure after he looked at me.

That's it. Anyone have any clue???