I know crisis equals opportunity but when your in the midst of it, you just want to explode...
I'm having a moment right now. I need it to go away ASAP. I started working and I have a presentation at 11am. But I just feel like crying my butt off.
I been feeling really bad since I got back to work, because my old supervisor made me look horrible. As if I was an incompetent employee that needs scrutiny and micromanagement. My new boss is having to see me twice a week etc.
I may not have done everything perfect but my old boss is clearly lying, I do have the evidence and my new supervisor is confident that we will face no issues. However, I can't help but feel humiliated. The claims my old boss made, even if some are false, have put me in a position where I feel useless etc.

To put the cherry on top, I'm constantly thinking about divorce. My husband is not bad, but I'm constantly having to direct him. He gets upset at me for correcting him. But some things can't be left like they are, he props the bottle for our newborn daughter and hold the phone more than her. He gets annoyed by the poor baby as if she had any fault. It pisses me off, but I do understand he has his own issues. I'm just tired of understanding his issues, lacking support on mine and.. if you remember still no sex. Since August but he still masturbates. It is driving me nuts.

Those two big issues and of course life in general, my crying newborn and my busy toddler. I want to be the best for them. I want to make my family proud. And while I do my job, that is a respectable job, I feel like crap because I'm not doing what I was meant to do. Which is create.

Now someone shoot me please.