Okay I THINK I know where you are at (been there done that?) You sound like you want to go faster... heal faster... learn more and right now! Your T is trying to keep an even pace. I think I said earlier that going slower helps you get there faster... and it's true. She has cautioned the group therapy as being too much, going too fast (ask her about this?)

It takes a LOT of talking with the T... as you describe things, think about things etc., your brain is trying to file those memories away.... it does seem like it takes forever.... well, forever isn't even long enough because remember there is no cure... but you appear to be on the right path...and you will get better and can find a life in the future... it takes time.

Actually, I was the scape goat. I was "bullied" my entire young life (we didn't really use that term back then much) .... I was the last of 6 children in my family and was often blamed for things that hadn't even BEEN done! I was constantly compared at school to my next older sister who was quiet, reserved and a straight A student... because I was not living up to my potential. Anyway... it could have been some of the presets that caused the PTSD when I was so severely injured and disabled and treated badly (and still am) by the insurance companies and lawyers.

So while you do have your own story, and it's legitimate, we are all much alike too.