Hello everyone,

I'd like to know a little bit more about this Personality Disorder. I'm in Therapy at the moment and I think I'm being a pain for this guy. First of all I've been to 5 sessions and I think the guy is my best mate. In my first session I told him I thought I was narsasistic but he said I wasn't. I told him I see myself as special and I tend to go for groups of friends that see me as the alpha male. My wife says I'm a drama queen, I fake my emotions because one minute I am really depressed and a few hours later I'm over excited. I've been told that I'm a womaniser and I'm embarrassing at parties because I chat women up, I have no interest in anything sexual though I just find myself flirting. I find when I'm with people I can't stop talking about myself and I can make things up to make myself look great. I find I start jobs and hobbies then before I know it I bored to death and want some other exciting thing to do.

I tend to see myself as James Bond but I'm probably seen by other people more as Austin powers. I can't stand it when I'm talking and someone ignores me. Sometimes I'll say "what?" Like I misheard them. I feel invisible if nobody acknowledges me. I've been accused of causing arguments to draw attention to myself. I always think that my employers should treat me differently to other employees because really the jobs below me. I find I can't stand being criticised in work and the feeling is overwhelming sometimes I have to fight tears back and other times I feel like screaming.

I told my therapist that I still feel like a little boy who isn't ready for this world. Then when asked how I see the world I said I see it as a really exciting place with loads to do, just that it seems a bit much for me at times and I tend to run away sometimes.

Just really interested to see if people with HPD relate to what I'm saying?