Hello, Twiks, and welcome.

Yes, I agree with you that you may be depressed. If you can't afford a psychiatrist right now (who is really the best to treat you), please go in and talk to an internist or your personal family physician. Any one of the three of them can medicate you to improve your feeling tone and help you remove alcohol from your system.

Getting rid of the alcohol seems to be a first-in-line order, in my view. Once you are medicated for relaxation, maybe the alcohol drive will disappear. I hope so.

Afterwards, you need to rebuild your nutritional status. Start eating more fresh vegetables, fruits, and salads, and leave the breads alone. Eat quality meats about
4 times a week. Add an Omega3 fatty acids to your diet (they are available at
GNC, Vitamin Shoppe and multiple other places--I use the Nordic Omega 3 simply because I like the lemon flavor.)

Omega 3 fatty acids have been shown to be effective in research now in helping with the symptoms of depression or Bipolar Illness. You may find them to be wonderful help while you're building your strength.

Friendships will come your way once you get your diet and medications straightened out. Be pro-active in your care. Make it a point to change your diet, take your meds, and get your Omega 3 fatty acids and vitamins (the ones which are low based on your physician's bloodwork).

You'll be amazed at how quickly and calmly you will respond to life in a positive way
and enjoy being the special person you really are but can't see right now because of the fog that depression, inadequate nutrition, and fatigue cause.

They all interact with one another in leading you down the lonely, sad road when you should be up and about enjoying your life; making changes will do that for you.

Please try it and keep in touch to let us know how you are getting along.

Best wishes.