I remember about January I was feeling really depressed. Not knowing at the time that my depression had gotten so bad, I just started crying and sobbed for hours. I remember thinking that this good cry helped me. I feel like if I had sought therapy then, my depression wouldn't have gotten so far. I've suffered for years but only now I'm really focused on getting well. I believe it will come because I can see the light, just barely, but through this forum, meds, and therapy I know it's there. Good luck. Hugs to you.