i'm afraid of myself vomiting. and i know i got a LOT worse when i actually did do the deed 2 years ago. it was all downhill since then.
yes, i panic if i feel nauseated for outside reasons and i also feel nauseated if i panic in general. i can't win.
out of the thousands of people who go to the other forums, most are being treated and keep everyone updated on things, if someone finds something that even remotely works, they talk about it. this is why i'm convinced that no one knows enough to fix it.
and i don't care if i am sick in public, alone or with close friends, it is all equally terrible.
i know when it started, but the 8 or 9 therapists and myself cannot figure out a reason it started then, so we tend to disregard that at this point.