Bless your heart Twiks -- I'm so sorry you're going thru this. But life doesn't have to be this depressing.

It does sound like you're suffering from depression. And depression CAN become serious. It's nothing to ignore.

You NEED to go see your medical doctor, Twiks. He CAN help you. Since you can't go into therapy, your doctor can put you on an antidepressant which will get you back to feeling "normal." And I'm sure if you tell him about your financial problems, he'll give you SAMPLES. Most doctors have plenty of samples on hand, so I'm sure he can give you enough of them to get you started. With some antidepressants, it takes awhile before they start working so don't stop taking them thinking that they aren't working. Just be patient. With others, they begin working within a week or two. Like I said, others can take up to 6 weeks! So you HAVE to wait it out! But please see your doctor, ok?

I've been on antidepressants for about 40 years, as I have clinical depression, which is major depressive disorder. And I'll have to take them til I die. So I'm no stranger to them. LOL If you have any questions about them, please message me, ok? I can probably answer your questions.

And if you just feel like talking, message me. I'll be happy to be your "friend." I wish you the very best Twiks. God bless you and please take care. Big hugs, Lee