I have not done any did therapy, It has not been offered to me as my dx is not did, over here treatment is very dx specific and I do not have insurance to go private as i was brought up to believe the national health service we pay for in our taxes would treat any illnesses we got.
i do not get flash backs or get upset about my past, i have rationalised all that has happened and know that the abuse was not my fault or doing and that it was simply my partners time to depart this earth, i did all i could for him, we had a great if difficult summer together, and i strongly believe he chose his time and was happy to go.
I rarely get angry and when i do there is always a justifiable present cause
although i do get upset and frustrated quite a lot my psychiatrist believes it is no more than anyone in my situation would be.
physically, my muscles are really deteriorating and my leg/core muscles couldn't hold me upright even if i were to try my hardest to make them, this is proven by proper tests, i do really past point etc, these are acknowledged by professionals, they are not simply in my mind. all of my difficulties are there all of the time, i do not lose time, and do not have alters to my knowledge. I am as far as i know am a whole, my psychiatrist would have flagged up if i wasn't i am sure.
I have listened to loads of the did threads on here and although i can understand did i can not relate much of it to me as a person. i do occasionally think i may have a little in me that never grew up, but when i listen to way the littles talk/type i dismiss the idea as my thoughts are always rational adult ones.