Flipped the eff out at my friend over text message today and barely saw it coming. I made a comment about something he was doing not being fair (and it wasn't) and then *BAM!* the little snowball turned into an avalanche of anger with me saying things like I didn't want to talk to him for a while and blah-de-blah-de-blah. Had the situation been completely as I'd seen it, I would have been justified (though my anger was pretty irrational). But as we know, things are never as they seem on the surface. My fear and trust issues made it so that I immediately pushed him away and ran for cover. I've said it before and I'll say it again: I have no idea why this person remains my friend through all my BPD crap, but I'm so so thankful that he does.