You have had to grow up very fast and have experienced too much of life too early. This in itself will set you apart and by the sounds of it you will be detached from others because of it. Your mothers attempt as suicide is all about her, her pain, nothing to do with you, but you did get caught up in the **** that goes with it.

Connection to others may seem impossible. Talk to your T about that. I don't bond with others either. It's like outta sight, outta mind. The world is overwhelming.

I hope you find some form of peace and comfort.