Torn Mind, I am so sorry you are hurting! That must have been awful to have to hear!!

I hope you can see that this is just one T, not all T's. She was not the T for you, because she wasn't offering anything close to what you need and what you want. I truly believe that the right T is out there for you. Maybe of another orientation besides CBT.

But for now, please be kind and gentle and take really good care of you