
Torn Mind
I'm so sorry this has happened.
Some of this is very similar to what happened between me and my xT.
He also wanted me to continue therapy with him, but doing so would have implied that I accepted what had happened and I didn't, so I terminated.
It was a decision in which I let my head rule my heart - I was very attached to my T so terminating hurt like hell. It still does, but I don't regret it.
Hang in there, TM. There will be many people here to support you, including me, when you're up to communicating again.
Bluey