I woke up early this morning and was really uneasy. I crawled into the corner of my bed and held onto my stuffed alligator and memories where just flooding every sense I have. It's so hard to put words to these feelings.
Those are the kind of moments I would like to have in therapy but how do I bring myself to that in a room. Carrying a stuffed alligator into a session might not be to good neither would crawling into the corner of the room and just letting emotion be emotion. She might commit me or at least that's what I fear. I'm not so good at letting anyone possibly have a little bit more control than me.