when ever I get the urge to harm myself ....anywhere...not just at church...that means I am having a hard time handling what is going on at that moment. to take care of myself I stop whats going on ..

example I get up and walk out of the church.. sometimes all it takes is a breath of fresh air. other times I go for a walk while my wife is in church. and other times I dont even go to church since I know being in church is a trigger that day.