unhappy guy, first and foremost, I can't imagine the pain of losing two immediate family members at such a young age. Kudos to you for staying strong. The college culture has changed a bit. Intelligence is a bit more valued than before. People seem to respect my academic achievements and appreciate my looks and style (I amateur model and was featured on my school's fashion blog), but I guess that my struggle lies in bonding with people on a less superficial level. I think you bring up a good point though; I should work on being more approachable. You definitely hit close to home with saying "you're too serious". I get that all the time.

Lovelacef, you also bring up a good point. My therapist has asked me to quit writing off people so easily. Often, when I find someone willing to talk to me, I get bored and go home. Then I end up crying because there is nobody around to talk to ever. I don't try to be rude. I ask questions and am engaged, but I feel like a phony, so I just leave to go play on the internet in my room.

I get dismissed by people changing the subject when I speak. Often, comments are made to belittle me and my comments. In my feminist group, I will bring sociological and philosophical ideas into the conversation (when people just want to spend the whole time complaining and sexism exists in their personal lives) and the group leader will be like, "okay, let's stay on topic". This also happens if I say something even remotely controversial. This happens in my personal life. People say, "Let's not talk so deep right now" or if I mention something distressing me, people will be like, "Let's talk about something happy." It's pretty painful to be shut down constantly, especially when I'm making an honest effort to reach out. Also, mutual "friends" will invite my roommates out and not invite me.

Openeyes, you are a wise and very intuitive person. Most of what you said rang true, except that I don't think that I am looking for a person to fill a void per se. I thrive off of helping people; I would never want a one-sided relationship. The Borderline sentiment scared me a little D: My therapist also suggested that I have an offending air about me, but I still don't get. What kind of emotion or feeling are they getting from me?

You all are awesome.