I understand the not feeling safe. the emotions you are feeling sound over whelming, but you made it through the trauma..... You can make it through this. You are a SURVIVOR. Dont let your abuser get away with what he or she did. If you give you know they won. You can make it through this. try and take one day at a time. Night time is the hardest time for me. espeically around this time of year. i get suiciidal. Try to hang in there. use your supports and remember there are good people out there. I think they are just hard to find.