This is the first time that my issues have prevented from functioning as a part of society. I just wanted to apologize. You guys really are the nicest people I've ever met and I just don't fit in here. I'm always so angry and can't help but despise everyone. I just felt the need to apologize for all of these thoughts I've been having. I really just don't feel like I'm letting people see me for who I really am. Deep down, I really do care about things, I think. I just don't show people that. What I do show them is the homicidal, twisted side and I feel like you all have the wrong impression. I don't feel like I should stick around, just because I feel like I tarnished my reputation here, just as much as anywhere else. I've done things in the past week that I'm so ashamed of and I just feel like I can't face myself anymore.