I am so sorry you are experiencing all this weirdness. I am new to diagnosis, but not new to feeling weird! I thought I would rather have cancer than this until I found you all by accident. I feel like I'm on the same page with all of you. Last night, I was watching a movie, a comedy of all things, and I got triggered. It was supposed to be about a vacation trip from hell. But it reminded me of a childhood vacation. I turned off the movie, and was supposed to journal. I got online with you guys and went to the draw ball. All of a sudden I was'nt a 46 year old me but an 8 year old. She's really shy but she had a great time on the draw ball. She wouldn't have anything to do with journaling - boring. There was some water spilled in the kitchen and she freaked out. I think she thought she was going to get in serious trouble. I played the role of her big sister and tried to comfort her. Apparently it worked, because I told her I loved her and she needed to go to bed. Then she left. And I decided to buy some crayons and colouring books for her. Do any of you have different projects for your different subs?