Hi Angel., welcome to Psych Central!
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Originally Posted by Angel.
I don't mind if there's a thunderstorm when I'm at school, I don't know why though. Is it because the building is so big? I don't know to be honest. I just feel safer there than in my apartment, I always hallucinate when I'm in my apartment; like the lightning is going to break my windows or fire balls will come out from the sockets and start following me around.
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That happened to remind me of something I posted (
here) a couple of years ago:
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Originally Posted by FooZe
... you're reminding me of some experiences I used to have pretty regularly when I was in my 20s and even some way into my 30s. I'd be alone in the house at night, say, and I'd start wondering: "I remember that outside my room there's the rest of the house, and the front door, and then the street. I checked the front door an hour ago and it was locked; nothing can get in. I should be perfectly safe here, only... what if it's not the way I remember it? What if right outside my room now is a haunted castle, or a cavern, or hell, or another planet?" 
Or later, when I lived in a cabin a few hundred feet back in the woods, I'd be making my way home by flashlight and the trees and bushes would start to look unfamiliar. If it turned out that I was no longer where I thought I was but had somehow ended up on the wrong trail, in a different country, or on a different planet, how would I ever explain to myself how I got there or find my way back? In retrospect I compare such experiences to dreaming (which, I understand, isn't very different in some ways from psychosis).
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I only had these experiences when I was by myself, never with other people around. It occurs to me now, that if I found I'd been magically transported to a haunted castle or another planet (or if a ball of lightning were to come out of an electrical socket), it would be a lot weirder if there were no one else around to compare notes with. "Did you just see what I saw?" versus "What if I try to tell someone else about this and they don't believe me?"
By any chance is the difference that you're the only one in your apartment at those times, whereas at school there are other people around?
I've never liked thunderstorms much, but I remember that they were most scary to me when I was
dreaming about them as a kid. I remember one dream where I was in the basement, cowering under the electric meter, waiting for lightning to hit the house. I think (now) that I associated being struck by lightning with a parent or teacher getting mad at me without warning.
YMMV, of course. 