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Originally Posted by (JD)
Yes, that is required in the world by all people, to behave and act civilly towards each other... it's just that it does feel fake because of the PTSD.
What I have learned is the miserable feelings I have are from the PTSD and the times when I am trying to fit in, those are the real me and feelings... some how the PTSD turns things upside down in that. It can have me thinking that I am really the miserable person when no one is around, and only pretending to be nice otherwise. But that's just not so!
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Trying to fit in isn't the real me, I like to associate with people who like me as I am but I am not going to go out of my way to fit in with the norm...I mean sure I do my best not to be rude or hurtful to others because I don't want to cause conflicts and its just not in my nature.
Also I feel I am miserable and do my best to be nice at the same time obviously only where appropriate though sometimes it's better to be a little more assertive than nice I suppose.