Hello DarlaKat! Welcome to PsychCentral!

It has been a very difficult time for you. You need to concentrate and get some information that will help you. I realize it is difficult with your depression, but to quickly get you help, you need to take action,now.

The community mental health in your area could be a resource of information of trying to get you help where you are now.

Your ex bf? Your head knows what you should keep doing-avoid him and do not get back together with him.

You can keep posting on the PC forum, too. If you have any questions, you can leave me messages at my profile page. Other members may post to your thread, so use those contacts as well. If you read a post from a member in these forums who shares common experiences as you, then you could try to leave messages for that person.

I hope that helps. Take care.