Our families of origin - especially if they were our first experience with abusive, bullying behavior - can set us up to finding ourselves in other abusive relationships in our lives.

I hope you can eventually find a way to "escape" without continuing to repeat the pattern over and over and over again.

It isn't easy, but it is doable ... It will take a lot of hard work and some good therapy and support networks.

Check into shelters and or group homes that help people who are escaping domestic violence situations (and, yes, this includes escaping abusive families of origin too). The county or city you live in should have some resources available at little to no cost to you.

The nice thing about shelters and group homes is they help you get the counseling and care you need while helping you to get back on your feet and independent so you don't have to keep putting yourself back into abusive relationships.

Don't give up ... It may take a bit to get a foot in the door ... But keep on trying ... You owe it to yourself.