It'll sound weird but sometimes I wish I was more disabled.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome/PDD when I was a child and I am living on disability while I wait for my vocational training funds that should come through in the summer.

But when I am asked about what I am doing with my life (i.e. am I working or in school), the universal question asked during all first impressions, and I tell them that I am on disability, I find that people respond with this negative attitude towards me, as if they immediately begin to check me out and think, "I don't see anything wrong with you…?"

The three scenarios I have witnessed and/or encountered the most…

Scenario 1:
Person A: "What are you doing with your life?"
Person B: "Oh, I work at x, y, z."
Person: "Wow, that's so cool!"

Scenario 2:
Person A: "What are you doing with your life?"
Person B: "I am attending the University of X, Y, Z."
Person A: "Oh, what are you taking?"

Scenario 3:
Person A: "What are you doing with your life?"
Me: "I am on disability."
Person A: "Oh…*looks me up and down*" and that's the end of that conversation.

People don't think the issues I have are legitimate to warrant needing assistance with employment. The fact that I have a functional body and can talk relatively well (and that's after over a decade of speech therapy and behavioral therapy) must mean I am a lazy person that wants to live off social assistance the rest of his life .

It makes me think that unless I am working or in school people think I am not worth consideration or being around.