please forgive me I lost control I lost the one thing I never had I lost the feeling of the imagination...the possibility of understanding the impossible the faith ...

I lost the faith!

and in pure tears of leaking brain out my eyeballs terrible beautiful release of the only pressure I experience!

please forgive me psych central for I betrayed you I forced you to follow my hell brain into insane...

please forgive me my dear friends here I believed I was dying a death alive like a moody poisonous zoo animal violently discouraged!

living is about avoiding death entirely and the one and only ending!

...once achieved the living becomes a "life"...and the death is off in the distance...

and like a bright eyed baby warrior fully equipped with weapons!

...ready to take the journey

to fight all the way in nappy all happy

...there is a place within each of us a place beyond imagination and beyond faith and beyond dreams!

it's not fantasy it's not even a WORD!

it's in between everything we know...

it's what we don't know it's free it costs only true emptiness to fill right up all the way...

thankyou for your support when I fell down everyway...thankyou for your respect when I couldn't get back up anyway!

thankyou for your love even when I can't see you
thankyou for letting me love you too when I don't know you...

James