BeachLover, I can certainly understand your feelings and how you just aren't sure of your judgment anymore. However, in a way you showed that you are a dear and trusting person. How did you know he was going to be such a louse? You are aware that maybe you did trust him too much, so at least you have insight.

But now you are alone and missing a close bond. Again, that's understandable. You had assumed the two of you would be together for the duration.

I can't say I have personally been in this exact circumstance. However, here are some thoughts that come to my mind: 1) Try to work on female friendships for right now. Have fun with their company and just socializing; 2) Along with that line of thinking, try not to worry about men so much right now. Let some time pass, so you can be more clear-headed. No boomerang romances, that is!; 3) Work on enjoying your own company. Find some hobbies or resurrect some. Please don't be one of these women who thinks they have to have a man to matter.; 4) And realize that you have just joined a great source for support for friendship, advice, fun, etc. in Psych Central. Take advantage of us.

If you just aren't able to get some stability after awhile, then remember you can have a few sessions with a counselor.

That's what "Dear PAYNE1" has to say right now, anyway. Let's see if other folks will speak up about your situation.